Can anyone relate or explain to me whats going on? I have this obsession for ranking many preferences of mine.
For example: “Do I prefer blonde or Brunette woman?” “During my teenage days, im sure i prefer blondes. But now, i like brunettes too. Do i like them less than blondes? Or do I like them in the exact same way nowadays?”
“How much % I like blondes? How much % i like brunettes?”
I get on this loop, i get trapped inside those questions, and never get to any conclusion or answer.
So, i cant enjoy life normally. I can’t just look to a woman and stay relaxed anymore. Now i always get on loops of thoughts. This is not life!!!!
And its not just about hair colors. Its about breast sizes preferences, furniture colors preferences, etc.
Its always: “do I prefer X or Y? Or both equally? How can I know? How can i feel?”
