My ocd is causing my intrusive thoughts, right? Because if it’s not, my thoughts are real and about me, right? But equally I really hope that the thoughts are wrong but I just can’t tell. It feels wrong. Surely if I actually wanted the thoughts it wouldn’t feel bad but then equally I get moments where I worry that it isn’t wrong. I think I know and hope that it is ocd but it’s just caught me out again. I feel this smile inside me like I’m enjoying this and don’t care but I do.
