Moral OCD?

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I have OCD. It manifests in many ways: I have experienced Rocd, Ocd, Real Events OCD etc. I’m under treatment right now and I’m doing better, but it seems to me that I’m still obsessing about one thing: my own morality. I fear that I’m a horrible person and that I should confess myself to everyone in my life or just leave them alone. I think I’m unlovable and struggle a lot with low self-esteem. I’ve been wondering if I have Scrupulosity OCD, ’cause when I do a mistake, I’m filled with horrible, strong guilt and I can’t stop overthinking everything that I say or do. I feel hyperesponsible too. It’s like I should punish me or over apologize. This is happening to me for years, even before I have discovered I have OCD, however, I think it got worse and worse. I’m constantly thinking about my morality and being too harsh to myself. Lying or hiding things is like going throught hell. I have depression too and sometimes it’s hard to tell exactly what is making me so anxious. My thoughts patterns are very problematic and I’m sorry all the time, feeling tremendously inadequate etc. I’m a big perfecionist and I have a obsession for being precise in everything I say and do or it will end up bad. Even when I’m right about something, I still feel like I should be better. I’m constantly afraid that people will judge me as an hyprocrate or that I’m too hard to deal with. I doubt myself all the time, my reasons and everything. A stupid mistake is like a crime to me – I can’t even think about them as minor mistakes, actually. Big mistakes are even worse. Also, I hate repeating myself and I get so frustrated with everything I said, it’s like my phrases don’t make sense. I don’t know if everyone is like this and I’m overthinking (lol), if I’m just being responsible or if it’s OCD. If any of you could tell me your experiences with similar things, I would appreciate so much, ’cause I’m still trying to understand me too. Thank you.

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Forum Moderators here – just checking in, as it’s been a while since you posted your topic.

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You’ll find lots of helpful web-based resources on topics such as:

• An introduction to OCD
• Assessment and Diagnosis
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• Funding specialist treatment
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• Good Quality CBT with ERP
• Making the Most of Therapy
• Medication for OCD
• Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
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• Primary Care for Adults
• Reassurance seeking
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Hello:

We’d also like you to know about this additional support OCD Action offers for you.

OCD Action Support Groups

Online Support Groups:

• Provide a safe and welcoming environment
• Allow you to connect with others and offer mutual support without judgement
• Are all peer led, assisted by a team of trained volunteers.

Who can join?

Anyone based in the UK and living with and/or affected by OCD or a related condition including:

• People who have these conditions, whether diagnosed or not
• Their parents, caregivers, partners and loved ones
• Students aged up to 25 in college / university/ other educational institutions
• Young people aged 16 – 17
• Young people aged 18 – 25

Types of groups

OCD Action offers specialised groups including:

• Pure O – General\Pure O – Intrusive Harm Thoughts
• Pure O – Scrupulosity & Morality
• Checking OCD
• Contamination OCD
• Perinatal OCD
• LGBTQ+ OCD
• Men’s OCD
• OCD for People of Colour
• BDD
• OCD & Autism
• OCD & Hoarding

What important details do I need to know?

• You can sign-up to a maximum of two groups initially. After attending at least once, you’re welcome to sign-up to another group
• Participation is easily accessible via Zoom, or
• If you don’t have internet access, we have a few phone support group places
• There is no charge to join
• Because of the high demand, please only sign up if you intend to use your place(s)
• To retain membership, you must attend a session at least once every three months

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As a Support Group member, you’ll be automatically be invited to monthly Navigating Services Sessions. Attendance is optional, and you’re free to opt out of the session mailing list at any time.

Led by our Helpline team, these sessions include:

• Information and support on accessing recommended treatments through the NHS and/or privately
• Opportunities to share lived experience of accessing support (for attendees or others)
• Answers to questions/concerns regarding recommended treatments and/or service provision

Want to know more about Support Groups?

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• Email sign-up@ebtsupportgroups.co.uk
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• See our website: https://ocdaction.org.uk/online-support-groups/

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