My mind is constantly on go with all these awful thoughts and it’s like 24 hours a day 7 days a week I spend ruminating and mental checking, sometimes even creating false memories to the point I don’t know what’s real or not anymore. I even mental check to make sure I don’t like the thought and then everything is all the more confusing. Even when I’m not thinking for once, my chest is constantly filled with anxiety and when I think sleep is the only place of relief, it follows me there too. I constantly feel disgusting and awful.
