Reply To: Doomed and I deserve it

[MeloParticipant]

 

Hey, I hope everything’s going well with you. OCD isn’t just about intrusive thoughts and feelings, but also compulsions. In my opinion, everyone has different ones. I’ve heard of people who test their reactions to mental images, others look at real people in real life and try to assess how they feel when looking at them. I also believe that something like typing the word starting with “P” into Google or entering something into Google Images and clicking on it is a compulsion too.

 

That’s a checking compulsion. Some people will argue and insist that’s not true, saying people with this kind of OCD avoid checking at all costs. In my opinion, that’s nonsense. OCD can escalate to that level, especially when it’s extremely intrusive. Of course, it’s never okay to look for real videos, but I understand situations where someone types something into a regular search engine and accidentally falls into a trap. I really do understand the urge to seek reassurance.

 

You shouldn’t do it, but I believe it’s a compulsion you can lose control over. I didn’t see anything, but I did click on something suspicious on Google. A notification popped up, and it snapped me back to reality, because deep down, I didn’t want to see anything! I probably would’ve thrown up or gotten really scared. “I don’t recommend anyone typing strange things into Google—you won’t find anything anyway. But I understand the intention, the impulse that commands you to check. You shouldn’t listen to it. Believe me, a person who truly is that kind of person doesn’t feel guilt and searches for all kinds of horrible things beyond just regular Google. In this case, it’s a compulsion—the urge to seek confirmation.”