You are certainly not a a disgusting vile monster… You are an organic creature with a carbon based organic brain, that is naturally disposed to be curious. We have virtually no control over our thoughts… And our thoughts will sometimes programme inbuilt physical reactions, because, biologically we are nowhere near as advanced as people would like to think. Just look at what world leaders do…Compared to them we are as pure as the driven snow.
Never feel guilty for being human… We are litle more than organic plumbing, and one day we will see ourselves as the wonderful humble people we are. If and when you marry, they will find you… Most likely when you have actually stopped looking.
We all have a right to be here, never forget that. It is our own geneticcal makeup, and biology that determines that, definitely.
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