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[yearsandyearsParticipant]

i have severe ocd and cannot stop asking myself the most horrific sick disgusting repulsive questions involving harm, torture etc,  I wouldn’t have ever thought it was possible to even think such things, my imagination has gone crazy, and its only when i have thought of the most sickest things i can that i can move on as once again i have reassured  myself that i would not ever want to do anything like these horrific things even though i know i don’t . wont and would never want to?

i have severe ocd and it always involves the people I love the most,

Could this all be because I did something when I was in my teens which was disgusting, and the shame has made me feel as though I have to keep checking I am not turning into a evil sick person? Im sorry if this seems like reassurance seeking, but I really need to know if this is a compulsion and if it is ,the best way to stop doing them, and how to feel okay with not doing this.   This is causing me so much  distress ,but I have never hurt anyone and never want to , and I especially hate having to think of these disgusting things

[ArchiveParticipant]

Hi there… Only just seen this…

One ‘trick’ I use, if there really is one, is to actually ‘crowd out’ the less wanted stuff in my mind, with joyful, happy stuff. There is a proverb… ‘If you turn to face towards the sun, your shadows will always be behind you…’

The ‘sun’ being a metaphor for bright, cheerful, positive things. A sort of ‘upness’.

Cos anything negative will drag us down, depress us, demoralise, discourage, devalue anything we attempt to do.

Is it possible to be positive all of the time? Most probably not, But, A lot of the time? Well… Yes!

But for most people these days, ‘cheerfulness’ isn’t their default setting… But cheerfulness can be self-perpetuating. Even ‘Normal’ ?

It’s not easy is it?  But let’s go ‘towards the light…’

Wannabe

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[johna2Participant]

I went through this back in 2006. I came to the conclusion, “thoughts are just thoughts”. These days I allow any thought to be there till it’s not. Imagine your mind like a mirror. The reflections, good or bad, can’t damage the mirror.

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