Schizophrenic/Psychosis OCD
I have suffered from OCD certainly for a few years now (fear of crashing cars and throwing myself under trains and harming others) although not professionally diagnosed.
This year it has really increased to a terrifying extent.
It has transformed from Harm OCD to Real Event OCD and now something else which I will describe.
I was performing in a play with friends in a different town so had to stay over at their place.
One evening I was laying on my bed feeling quite calm mildly wondering about my OCD.
Suddenly the thought occurred to me re one of the people I was staying with ‘he is a demon’. Then I immediately thought ‘oh no’. Somehow I knew I had found my new obsessional thought; that the people I was with were demons.
Somehow I knew this was all nonsense but I couldn’t get the idea out of my head. I managed to act rationally and complete both shows that weekend (this past weekend just gone) but all the time the thoughts of demons and being in a demon world were there all the time.
At night I googled and came across Schizophrenia OCD.
I am back in London and trying to get on with everything despite these bizarre intrusive thoughts.
As it happens the Monday after the weekend I had to see my psychology people (cant remember correct name) and I told them everything even that I was prepared to be sectioned but they just prescribed some drugs (aripiprazole and mild diazepam) and sent me on my way with next appointment not until January.
Does this sound like a form of Schizophrenic/Psychosis OCD?
I am treating it as such although I have at times panicked and wanted to get myself sectioned and am frightened it will isolate me from friends and family (how on earth do you tell them about this without seriously scaring them) or that I am actually delusional or about to lose my mind and perhaps act out something horrible in response to these thoughts.
There were no hallucinations visually or audibly although in my minds eye I was sort of seeing/imagining demonic tails on people if that makes sense.
I am extremely worried.
Is this a form of schizophrenic/Psychosis OCD does anyone relate or had something similar?
