Hi,
I used to use this when my OCD was really bad however I managed to get it under control with medication, therapy and cutting out Alcohol but I had my first relapse yesterday/today…
I got really drunk with my sister in law and there are gaps in my memory from the night we went out. My brain is telling me I could have cheated on my boyfriend and forgot and I must confess even though I have no detail or recollection of anything. I messaged my sister in law for reassurance but she hasn’t responded yet, she did verbally say I was fine and nothing happened but my brain is now telling me what if it did and she just forgot and she’s going to remember and my boyfriend will leave me. Or she is going to announce it at some point in the future and I must constantly be on edge. I’m struggling to piece my memory together which is causing such a mental toll and constant rumination. I knew I shouldn’t have drank alcohol as it is a breeding ground for my ocd and anxiety and I can just feel that my brain is going to create a false memory if I keep ruminating on this thought.
I often used to tell my boyfriend of these thoughts and it helped however I think it is making him have doubts as he doesn’t understand OCD so I really need to stop telling him every time I have a thought.
please could someone provide some advise 🙁
