I really want to be in charge of my ocd but.. each day starts off really easy, and then it’s really predictable…ll be washing something and start thinking I need to be extra safe and thorough or I’ll get ill…I know I cannot wash my fears away and have never have done so. To be honest, I probably wash and check again again so no one including myself will be harmed. When I go outside, I have to watch everything as it could be dangerous, and my biggest problem now is thinking people are all looking at me and thinking I’m not normal. I’ve lost far too many years of my life to this horrible disease and also people I thought were friends and jobs too. I find that more and more I have no understanding of my place in the world. It’s so hard to explain this but does anyone understand?
