No control over my bdd

[AnneJamesParticipant]

Ok, you all are going to think I’m a disgusting monster some sort of creepy creature with a messed up brain, who has no control over my thoughts. I think everyone is ugly and fat but especially me, I’m the worst. My thoughts about my body are like built-in physical reactions, and I am nowhere near getting better as people like my parents would like to think.

I just look in the mirror and my thoughts about myself and other people are pure evil. I feel guilty for being myself and one day, I think Ill meet some wonderful bloke and then marry him and only then will he find out who I really am. Most likely he’ll stop loving me, leave me and forget about me, leaving my on my own. My bdd will control me forever and it determines that my life will be definitely miserable. Any way out of this?

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