My OCD struggle at this time

[TomaszPLParticipant]

Hello Everyone,

I post this topic so this May help me to get over this.

I have been struggling with OCD since I was 9 years old. My ocd themes changed from every possible theme you can name. For now I struggle with mixed Hocd, religious OCD, false memory and contamination. I know that my intrusive thoughts, feeling and urges don’t make any sense, but it’s really hard of letting it go.

For example somehow few months Ago I wanted to be a Christian, I was baptised as Roman Catholic but when I was in my late teens and early 20s I started to follow Slavic Paganism. So I started to Think maybe God can help so I decided to turn back to Christianity, I thought maybe I being punished by God For tuning away from him. So every time I thought about going back to christianity I was bombarded with groinal responses and thought “am I aroused by Jesus? Whas that physical arousal? That groinal surely felt pleasursble” and I felt urge to be a Christian again, so this made me worry and gave me anxiety. Did I choose to be a christian because of getting aroused physically and mentally by Jesus? then when I manage to get over it. Then my false memory OCD kicks in and tells me that “I was aroused by Jesus when I wanted to convert and I want to be christian now because of Arousal I had to Jesus and I probably liked it at that time”. So this makes me Think maybe I should stay and belive in the old ways like I used to, but the I get groinals and what if I have dirt on me such as semen, I can think about my religious beliefs when I am dirty and contaminated by semen. So this is how my OCD mixes themes Hocd, Religious, Contamination and false memory. I know how stupid this sounds, sometimes I laugh at this because it sounds paranoid.

 

So everytime I want to go to church my OCD tells me “You are going there because of that time when You have been aroused by Jesus and this made You be a Christian again” (Hocd and religious OCD) and I try to reassure myself that it’s not True, so my false memory kicks in.

 

So much anxiety, emotional and existencial pain.

[Forum Moderators]

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[johna2Participant]

Groinals are born out of anxiety, not desire.

I don’t think it matters what religion you follow. Personally I think all religions are a product of creative imagination. If it helps you, fine. But try not to guilt yourself. I highly doubt there are any invisible people in the sky wanting to judge and punish you.

It’s good that you can have a laugh. Comedy is a good healer.

[Forum Moderators]

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In addition to OCD Action, other organisations provide useful, reliable and relevant support for people with OCD and OCD-related conditions and their friends, families and carers. Find out more on our Resources page: https://ocdaction.org.uk/resources/

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Maternal OCD: They provide help for women with perinatal obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD), a debilitating anxiety disorder, which is treatable. Maternal OCD’s aims are to:

• Raise awareness of perinatal OCD to healthcare professionals, mums to be/new mums, researchers and national decision-makers
• Provide information and support to mums and their families
• Encourage and support perinatal OCD research

BDD Foundation: Provides support for people with Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), a preoccupation with perceived defects/flaws in appearance, often cause excessive self-consciousness. The Foundation:

• explains that BDD is a treatable condition and how, with the right help, recovery is very possible.
• provides information on support and treatment services available to UK residents
• recognises that the BDD community is worldwide. They encourage everyone to seek help and support through online services that can be accessed anywhere.

Asto Clinics: Asto is a UK charity providing treatment based on what works for individuals living with OCD. Asto’s founder, Steve Turnock, suffered from severe OCD and is aware of how life-changing the right support can be.

International OCD Foundation: The IOCDF is a large nonprofit serving the OCD community world-wide, including family members and health professionals. The IOCDF is known for:

• Their mission – to ensure that no one affected by OCD and related disorders is alone. Their community provides help, healing and hope.
• Their vision – that everyone impacted by OCD and related disorders has access to effective treatment and support.
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Other OCD-Related Support Services – Find Out More!

In addition to OCD Action, other organisations provide useful, reliable and relevant support for people with OCD and OCD-related conditions and their friends, families and carers. Find out more on our Resources page: https://ocdaction.org.uk/resources/

These are just some of the many organisations:

Maternal OCD: They provide help for women with perinatal obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD), a debilitating anxiety disorder, which is treatable. Maternal OCD’s aims are to:

• Raise awareness of perinatal OCD to healthcare professionals, mums to be/new mums, researchers and national decision-makers
• Provide information and support to mums and their families
• Encourage and support perinatal OCD research

BDD Foundation: Provides support for people with Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), a preoccupation with perceived defects/flaws in appearance, often cause excessive self-consciousness. The Foundation:

• explains that BDD is a treatable condition and how, with the right help, recovery is very possible.
• provides information on support and treatment services available to UK residents
• recognises that the BDD community is worldwide. They encourage everyone to seek help and support through online services that can be accessed anywhere.

Asto Clinics: Asto is a UK charity providing treatment based on what works for individuals living with OCD. Asto’s founder, Steve Turnock, suffered from severe OCD and is aware of how life-changing the right support can be.

International OCD Foundation: The IOCDF is a large nonprofit serving the OCD community world-wide, including family members and health professionals. The IOCDF is known for:

• Their mission – to ensure that no one affected by OCD and related disorders is alone. Their community provides help, healing and hope.
• Their vision – that everyone impacted by OCD and related disorders has access to effective treatment and support.
• Their work – providing up-to-date education and resources, quality professional training, and advancing research.

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