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wannabefree
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    Hi friends. Another week, another dollar, as they say.

    Blessed release…

    I have made the momentous decision to leave a very toxic, long running situation…

    This has been a long time thing… As an OCD sufferer, I have spent almost all of my life serving others… All for everyone else…  desperately trying to get other people to like me, to want me, to accept me for who I  am, not for what I can be cajoled into doing for them…

    Part of my OCD, In fact virtually all of it, due to the awful attitudes of many of those around me. I have walked away… To be at others beck and call, No more…

    My life is my own now… Yes, I  am still person of faith, But not to serve ratty, manipulative, awful people. People who just didn’t want me as the person I am inside…

    There will be nice people out there… Maybe they will find me… Reach out to me… I will find them… Life is gonna be great again…

    I have the right to just go as far as half way to meet up with others… I have gone way beyond the call of duty to survive… I  have done all the running, used my own money and time. But have been left feeling abused, undervalued, totally taken advantage of… By people who really shouldn’t be like this… People you would expect better of… Prominent people in the community…

    But I know what I  am taking away with me… Me!  A survivor.

    Perhaps you, dear reader need to make a momentous decision for yourself? Are you happy?

    Sometimes our OCD can leave us vulnerable to others whims. We worry about others feelings, health… My own issue regarding contamination… I lost jobs over that… I had multiple suicide attempts due to trying to somehow get on with, and work with very toxic people.

    It just ain’t worth it my friend… You need to find your happiness, in a very stressful life situation.

    We no longer have enough in life to be proud of ourselves anymore.

    Work no longer brings pride… Neither in production, or money. We are worn out… Physically exhausted,  understaffed, demoralised.

    All this in only fifty years… Britain has gone from empire, to not enough for us to feel happy about.

    Let’s see if we can build ourseves up again… Just do something happy… Start with a smile… You remember the smile-grabbing thing we started together? Let’s all start doing that right now… A cheery smile, and ‘Hiya!’ And walk on. It works better than anything else.

    It really does! Go to a mirror in your home, right now, and smile at yourself… It will lift you. Far more than any old pay rise or expense account. Money does not make us happy…

    The more greedy they are, the even more they want…

    So…

    That’s it for this week… Don’t forget to keep smiling… You may be the only one… But it will make you feel lifted too… And that is absolutely vital. Vital beyond our  wildest dreams…

    Let’s go for it together!

    Seeya next Friday, about the same time, right here…

    Wannabe