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Hi dear friend…
We’ve made it through another week, just… I for one am absolutely exhausted… For some reason my sleep patterns are allover the place… Without sleep, we are ill-equiped to cope with our day, life is stressful enough anyway, without exhaustion to deal with…
We had carpet fitters in today… The underlay went down, along with all the grip rods etc. Then the carpet was brought in, and was twelve inches too short! So, we have the room, no doors, and just the underlay in place…
They have been very good, and have arranged to bring another carpet tomorrow, for the same prie, jut a little bigger to do the room. It will be great when it is all complete…
Sometimes we experience delay with things… We can wait literally years for the right people o come along… But when they do, i makes all the struggle almost worth it.. I say almost… I have been looking for the right church for me for fifty odd years… We cannot change other people, only ouselves, but there is a limit to how much others can expect us to deal with, sometimes, really bad attitudes…
An old friend has asked that I visit one occassionally, but in converation today, it reminded me of how much I had been hurt. We can forgive, but forget? Well that takes time, and often a lot more.
If we go through life with a happy-go-lucky attitude, we find ourselves used as targets by others. Walking into a church building, full of people, and getting totally ignored, really, really hurts. We can bounce it off, but that doesn’t make it okay, and the wounds can go very deep… It is difficult to smile at soeone who totally refuses to look at us. It costs so little, but as hard as we try, they jus won’t acknowledge the fact that we are even there…
I have been there or my faith journey, not for what they wold like me to do, without thanks, support, etc. I have stood in the street with a charity collecting tin… For people who are actually financially better off then myself.
But no more… I play a specific musical instrument… I’m taking it to where others like the same… It makes all the heavy lifting worth it… I have always loved music… It has a way of crossin language and culture differences…
My challenge at the moment is latin-american… Music to not only listen to, but to move to.
Okay… What shall we try this week? How about, taking at least ten minutes each day, purely for ourselves… Doing something just for ourselves… A long refreshing cuppa… A walk in the park… Even a cycle ride… I have got hold of a mountain bike… Nice comfortable tyres.
Or perhaps just a bit of time sitting very comfortably somewhere. Whatever it is, make it entirely for yourself…
Only then can we revitalise to cope with our own little corner of the world. And remember, keep -smile-grabbing!
Until next week then dear friends, same sort of ime, approx 6pm Uk time, right here.
Wannabe