Now I try to test myself with certain thoughts by imagining myself as a boy and it just makes me feel awful. I imagine myself having ocd and I don’t like it at all. It makes me very anxious and I guess that’s an indication that all this is just ocd but the doubt still persists. I’ve imagined myself changing my pronouns from she/her to he/him or they/them but it doesn’t feel like me at all. I am a girl and I will always want to see myself and present myself that way but doubt stilll persists and I don’t know how to deal with it.
