It like I can think about contamination logically, but when I’m washing my hands my logic thinking vanishes and feel like an OCD wall goes up that stops me thinking logically and realistically. Its just after I’ve washed my hands once I can’t stop it there the urge to keep washing more is too strong to ignore and the thoughts of what if I missed a bit or didn’t scrub it enough. My brain feels like a big ball of tangled wires constantly on the go.