I am now at a place where my ocd fears have gone after doing erp , and am at a good place although now the years before knowing I had ocd sometimes come back , and I feel guilty of all the things I did for reassurance. I ended up having a breakdown and worry how all of this , affected my children although they say they don,t remember , even though I thought some of the rituals involved them , am I thinking too much into this as I myself was so traumitised by it?