My thoughts are back and I hate it so much. Most of the time right away I feel grossed out and don’t even want to think about it, but then sometimes I have a graphic thought and it doesn’t seem gross like I would feel comfortable doing it and I hate that so much. Sometimes I get a response with it and it feels like I would like snd and then I have a panic attack. These thoughts are about everyone including friends snd people around me and I hate it. I feel so terrible all of the time. I feel like I and 2 different people and I hate it so much.
