so i was watching a video today and then it touched upon the subject of being transgender, which sent me into a panic. So what i did after that was go straight to the restroom and look at myself in the mirror for almost an entire hour, trying to figure out if i felt comfortable with being female or not. while i did that i had a lot of thoughts racing through my head, and i began feeling really anxious as i kept asking/repeating the same questions to myself over and over again to make sure i was a girl. but no matter what i did the feeling that something was wrong wouldnt go away. I didnt feel like there was anything wrong with my body, but i kept saying to myself “I like being a girl and i like my body, but what if i don’t?” and this feeling wouldnt stop and then after that i got onto my computer and looked up images of both guys and girls to see which gender i identified with more. I found myself wanting to look more like the girls, but then whenever i looked at the guys I felt this awful feeling in my stomach cuz i imagined myself looking like them. my mind was all over the place and i knew i had to stop doing all these things, so i stopped for a little while and then as i began to calm down i looked back at everything i just did and i thought “nah…im sure im a girl.” and now i feel fine again. Is this a normal experience with ocd? i few minutes ago i was freaking out over the thought of me being a man but then i stopped doing the compulsions and now im back to feeling like a girl. I’m sure that must mean that its ocd and not gender dysphoria, but im still scared. Tell me, does this sound like ocd at all?
