the false attraction feels so real to sometimes, like I was watching a video and it was a group playing a guy sport and I got this feeling like attraction or something snd now my heart aches all over again. It almost felt like how I would feel watching guys play snd I hate that so so much. Why is this happening? My mind said “that’s cause you like it” and then it felt like I really did feel attraction snd now I’m panicking and freaking out. I have all these thoughts of doing these things snd I get this terrible horrible feeling in my chest and I could burst into tears I hate it so much. Why did it feel like I felt attraction like I do with guys. Oh god no I hate this so much. It felt so real snd now I’m freaking out again. I was having such a great day too and now it’s all ruined.
