I have had harm / pure o ocd for at least 45 years, have never hurt anyone ever ,never felt as if I want to yet still constantly have fears of turning into someone who would or could. I have recently found that if I try to harm myself it sometimes reassures me that I would never do/ or want to do any harm like that to the people I love so much, but like all my mental compulsions , I still question myself. I am so sick of all this and really should know that after having this horrible disorder for so many years that I wont do anything I fear., because I dont want to and hopefully never will want to. Is this new thing for reassurance another ocd compulsion ?
