It’s just every time I have intrusive thoughts I don’t feel disgusted, it feels like I would be comfortable doing it then it makes me feel like I would like it and that bothers me so much. It’s like it’s normal now like I’m not effected by the thought and I hate that so much. It makes me heart ache. I’m so sorry for this forum being so long. I know I’m kinda just being a broken record on here and that I need more professional help. I just have no one else to talk to right now. I’m hoping that changes soon but I just don’t know what to do.
