I have had harm ocd and intrusive thoughts all my life since I was a child, however I have been doing so much better lately, I realise all my ocd fears are false and working through a workbook has helped. Then out of the blue I had a flashback from about 30 years ago to when I used to think if I thought bad things it could come true. that eventually caused me to have a breakdown, as I used to keep repeating horrible things in my head
It has started the whole cycle of the ocd thoughts again,,, I tried to tell myself yes but you can say anything in your head it doesnt make it true or happen… then bang it was like but what if the words just appear in my head though like saying or wanting bad evil things to happen to people I love, this is so far removed from who I am as a person as my ocd has always been about protecting my loved ones. I would give up my life for them but what if the horrible words just come into my head as things do with ocd.
I fear the very idea of saying horrible bad things even in my head as my thoughts have always been about the people I would give up my life for ,,, but this new thing has really got to me as the more I think about it the more obsessed I am with it,,, what can i do ,,please help if you can as i am really really distraught over this and I keep thinking, but what if something like that came into my head just because it could , what if it cause something really evil or bad to happen, please try to help me if you can I am desperate.
