Hey,
I’ve been seeing a therapist lately, but still struggling with a couple things. Long story short, I have OCD…
I’m 30 years old and the other day I was on this guys Instagram. He is 21 and I think he is pretty cool and quite attractive. I would never date anyone under the age of probably 27 due to maturity levels and it being weird, but I found myself going through his Instagram and was looking at photos of him.
I found myself checking him out, and 10 seconds later felt so much panic, as I thought why am I checking out his photos. It completely made me feel sick. I feel like I was maybe just looking at the pictures because of my OCD without even realising it. As sometimes I will test myself to see whether the attraction is genuine or due to my ocd.
I’ve always been attracted to men older than me, but I keep thinking, why would I think this guy is attractive?
His photos haven’t changed. He looks the same, but I just feel sooooo creepy!
is this my ocd telling me I was checking him out, or was I actually checking him out in a creepy way. I don’t know, my brain is so mashed right now 😢
