Reply To: Wedding day story

[Loki1987ParticipantParticipant]

It’s exactly like my ocd from ten years ago, my wife says most people would just let it go, but I’m repeating constabtly, coming up with new things and then dismissing them and then back around again. Did I say that or did I think it? I’ve even driven a long way back to the venue to try and retrace my steps but I cant remember, will the videographer listen to 8 hours of audio, what if my wife divorces me already if I said something so bad, I don’t know what to think. It’s so scary having a blank memory when you know you’ve been saying awful things to yourself drunk but being recorded. I keep filling in the blanks with terrible things, believing I said that and then thinking I didn’t, or did I? This anxiety is so bad.