If anyone knew what went on in all of our heads we would be judged. Thoughts are thoughts. No power behind them unless we give them meaning or we react with behaviors. OCD attacks that logic. If you Fear something you don’t want to be then you are not it.. I know this sounds like reassurance so ill keep it short. People that do bad things do it because for some odd reason they get fulfillment and enjoyment. The idea of who they are doesn’t bother them hence why they react on it.