Hi there, this is the first time I’ve posted on here. Looking to speak to some people that have had similar experiences. I’ve recently realised I have OCD. I am also diagnosed with ADHD. I had a really bad episode of OCD following a pedicure stressful period of work. Although my OCD can take different forms the worst one it takes is a preoccupation with having herpes, even though I have never tested positive or had any signs I have it. It manifests into lots of physical checking and somatic symptoms, which I’ve recently realised had a name, somatic OCD?! I managed to get on top of it with help of CBT and stopping the compulsions. It has recently been triggered again following a short relationship with someone who I thought was turning into a serious relationship … I feel like I am back to square one. I am absolutely terrified and frozen with fear that either I have herpes or I have given this person herpes. I am also ruminating over the different reasons why he called things off with me, as it was very sudden and following a night out together. How can I get on top of this again I feel like it’s ruining my life 😢 I just want to be able to move on. As soon as one fear dies down another crops up eg it goes from I may have herpes, to I have him herpes, what if I’m pregnant, he realised what a messed up horrible person I am etc. thanks in advance for reading.
