I recently split up with my ex girlfriend, it went quite well considering, afterwards I completely bombarded her with messages and gifts for 2 weeks, even though she was very clear it is over, I understand that getting dumped hurts and a lot of people smother there ex’s afterwards,I thought we were going to settle down and have kids I wanted to propose. I’ve struggled with ocd for most of my life and am afraid that me reaching out over and over is a compulsion even though I logically understand it’s over, I’ve written hundreds of letters and messages and not sent them it’s consuming my life. Ive never behaved like this in past breakups and am worried my OCD is getting involved, I hate myself so much as I’ve completely ruined my chances of a friendship with her, as she has blocked me everywhere, I do understand why she did it, it’s completely not fair to her. I don’t know if anyone has experienced something similar or if I’m just being the typical crazy ex?
I am also now worried that I’m actually a narraccist and my ocd has been massive lie and excuse, and I’m making it up to get me off the hook for being a bad person because I feel guilty.
