I’ve just had my second child and I honestly feel so hopeless about my thoughts and feelings, I’ve been diagnosed with ocd when I had my first child, ocd keeps convincing me that I would want my child to die I don’t want to say what of incase it comes true, I hate myself I keep crying and feel like I don’t deserve to even be his mother with the horrid thoughts I’ve been having and when they are so convincing! Does it ever get better? I just don’t feel I can live any longer if I feel like this! I’m currently on meds I have been since Half way through my pregnancy, I honestly don’t know what to do! I’m speaking to a proffesional about this tomorrow but today has just not been a good day for me!
