False memories

[leigh123Participant]

Hi,

I’m new here and not really sure how this works but would appreciate some advice. About a year and a half ago I started having these thoughts linked to memories in my past that I may have cheated on my boyfriend, I would panic, cry and be riddled with guilt! It’s strange because they are thoughts and not actual memories but now I’ve started to create the possible scenarios in my head and be like oh yeah that could’ve been how it happened and now I’m confused if they’re real or not and I keep asking people in the memories if they are true for reassurance, it helps for a while but then I start to think they’re lying to me. It’s gotten a lot worse these past few month changing topics and now I’ve circled back to an old one, it feels so real this time I’m finding it hard not to get reassurance. so this one is, I was having drinks with my boyfriends mum and her friend and she popped to the toilet and I was talking to her friend and then I went to bed as soon as she came down, this thought that he may have kissed me while my boyfriends mum was upstairs is eating me inside out, this man is not even the slightest bit attractive to me and I love my boyfriend so so much I would never want to do that to him but I keep thinking what if I was that drunk I did it, what if it really happened! I keep feeling the urge to ask my boyfriends mum to ask her friend if it happened but that would come across as so strange to them both what if she thinks it really did happen, in fact what if he says it did happen! I feel like it’s never ending can anyone help please?

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