Hey there guys first time opening up to alot of people than family and the go,
Since covid I have developed ocd and it has been getting worse and worse and worse to the point I have no control, I’m not sure how this is going to sound it’s crazy I know 🙁 But firstly I spend more than an hour in the shower doing things 4 times, face first, body after constantly counting doing a routine every day to feel comfortable and complete,
Wearing clothes! I tend to tuck my bed sheets in the sides then get my jeans or joggers and fold them up making sure there all straight and put on the bed neatly and then same with underwear, everything else I don’t have no issues,
But I’m constantly counting to 4 all the time when putting clothes on doing a routine 3 or 4 times, putting underwear on had to be lined up with my belly button and the rear seam lined up in the center of my back, then making sure my underwear is all same length on each leg too, same with jeans and joggers etc I’ve tried not doing these things but it makes me feel terrible and agitated, as if I have a stone in my shoe that uncomfortable feeling it’s still there when you have taken your shoes off to get rid of it, that feeling of comfort all the time,
I take ages cleaning my glasses making sure theres not a spec of dust on them, car seats I’ve makered to get back into a car and ajust it to the markings to feel comfortable,
I’m currently on ssris escitaloprám 5mg and 10mg and was on 5mg of Sertraline for for few months, in tolal since August I have been taking tablets to help but they have just made me numb and brain foggy, even my sex life has gone down the pan, there causing me issues on those terms too, I have to wait for help from a therapist 24 week wait to try and talk to someone to help,
I just don’t know what to do as mad as all this sounds it’s really taking over my life I have tried hypnosis but hasnt work as I have my own mind,
Anyone have any help or the same sort of issues and how to overcome these problems?
Thank you many thanks!
