Contamination Fear

[MDCParticipant]

Hello and good evening to you all. I am a new member on the OCD forum, and I wanted yo reach out to you and share my story about my OCD. I have been suffering with contamination OCD thoughts and feelings for over 20 years. I have tried CBT and medication to help me to overcome this. Unfortunately, my OCD has never improved appeared to have improved and I am still suffering today. I have experienced contamination fears around being infected by dirty needles and then contracting HIV and AIDS by being out and about in the community. I have fears associated with seeing items of rubbish they appear to mimic the size and shape of a needle which makes me fear so anxious that I need to come back home and wash my hands. In a day, I can often wash my hands as much as 40 times to reduce the risk. I feel so tired and exhausted with having these horrible thoughts. I feel so silly for behaving in this way. I have always wanted to join these forums but I have never had the courage to do so incase I was laughed at. Any suggestions for how I can help myself to fight my ocd would be greatly appreciated. Has anyone else ever had similar fears to me?

[wannabefreeParticipant]

Hi there and welcome… Only just seen this.

I have too… I remember carrying bottles of antibacterial gel in my pockets and bags. Desperately thinking that I contaminated the world. A world that is already contaminated by other people. By other people who very often just don’t give a damn.

A good book to help us is, ‘Feeling good, the new mood therapy’ By Dr David Burns MD. It is available from Amazon, and I guess, most bookshops. He has a wonderful way of looking at life.  It is based largely on the principles of CBT, but he is very down to earth. We don’t have to have the latest version, the one I got I’ve had about ten years, and is very easy reading. Another one is ‘How to stop worrying and start living’, By Dale Carnegie. I believe it can be found in audio on youtube. Apparently, he died the year I was born, so it is an old book, but again, easy to follow.

Finally OCD is not a weakness… We need tremendous strength to overcome it, but it can definitely be done. I class myself as being in a sort of recovery now… It has been like a wild fairground ride, but all the better for standing back down on solid ground again…

Welcome!

Wannabe

[Forum Moderators]

Hi:

Forum moderators here; we’re sorry you haven’t had many replies yet. Please don’t take this personally or ever think you’re alone. It may just be that forum users are taking a bit of time to consider how to reply and support you.

And please remember that you can also contact the OCD Action Helpline to talk to or email someone who understands OCD.

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