Hey, I’ve had OCD for about 13 years. It’s mainly fear of losing anything incase it is of value, sentimental or has something important written on it. I have this overwhelming sense of responsibility & feel I’m careless if I was to lose something.
I’m doing a lot better than I was. It takes me 10 minutes to get ready in the morning whereas before it would take 5-6 hours on occasion.
But today I’ve had a spike. A trades person had to visit the property. I had to check the rooms they were going into to makesure nothing to stick to or fall into their belongings & be lost for ever. However they ended up going into a different room which spiked my OCD. I’d checked that room bit then I had gone back in and opened a coat pocket to get keys. I remember checking the floor where I was sat and I’m likely to have scanned the area but the fact that he went in there set off my OCD. I know I shouldn’t but I told him how I felt, he said he checked his pockets, I checked his shoes as he walked off. Then I checked the house over and over again. Then when family came home I felt I’d missed a bit and had to check again and again. Its suddenly got worse today with so many doubts thinking I’ve been careful. I feel so down because it’s hard to cope with the thought of losing something and the exhaustion of saying it’s ocd then doubting again.
I want my life back and I’m struggling to get through the spike.
Any advice?
