I think I have an OCD related condition but it is very hard to explain, even though it consumes all of my thoughts. Kinda as if a voice in my head tells me horrible things about myself all day long. I just hate it. Even thoughts about my future and I hate that because I know I don’t want to even think about that. It feels so real, like the thoughts are who I am. I don’t understand how I can have these where it feel real, like I could see all these bad things happening to me or feel like I would want them. Then I’m the next moment, I know I don’t. That makes me feel like this voice in my head views me as I view myself. Almost as if it know more about me then I know. I know that makes no sense at all and I hope this ocd-like condition goes away soon.
