Just looking quick bit of advice.
I am pet sitting for a friend. I do this quite often for other friends all their pets love me and I am good with them.
My issue comes with leaving the house. Did I leave anything out they could hurt themselves on? Did i lock all the doors right? Did i leave anything on that could catch fire? Did i remember to leave them more water?
All these things would mean it could easily take an hour or 2 of constant checking and waiting by the phone until owners home again.
So I've been diagnosed with ocd for over 18 years now. I have issues around contamination and checking and other crap. But I noticed another weird behaviour.
While in lockdown I've been gutting my house. I have a lot of clothes, like loads and loads so thought right it's time to throw lots out. I just threw away a huge pile of t shirts that are identical in that I have chewed the neck away in so many. Like over 20 shirts. I planned to give a bin bag or 2 full to charity shop but obviously none of them can do in!
Just having another wee rant. Susan (what I call my ocd) is kicking the shit out of me. I just want some f**king sleep.
I took today off work because I didnt get any sleep last night and anything I would have written today would have been crap. Had a sick day.
Unfortunately noone on here will be able to say if you have ocd or not.
OCD shares symptoms with many other things.
Hows the therapy going? They make suggestions what it could be?
When your checking locks etc, why are you doing it? What are your thoughts before and after?
I certainly dont envy you. Family matters can be delicate enough at the best of times.
I really hope you find some sort of solution. I'm sure it's not easy for you to see your mum struggle and your granny upset.
When you see a loved one struggle your instincts are to help.
You need to look after yourself first and foremost. I have no patience for people that have an issue that is affecting loved ones and wont seek help. Even a small step to show willingness.
I also have contamination themes and covid is a bit of a dick for us. And for many makes it harder.