I’m a 19 year old male and I’ve had OCD all my life. I’ve been stuck in this endless cycle of HOCD since I was 12 and until recently I’ve had hardcore anxiety from it. Now I don’t feel anxiety and I kinda just feeling like giving up. I’m not sure I even give a shit about getting better anymore. Rather the anxiety I react with anger and I kinda hate the world now. I feel like even if I get better from HOCD I still won’t be happy. Most of the time I’m just emotionally numb and apathetic to most things. Is this normal?