this morning i was dreaming right before i woke up (you know how youre kindof in that state between dreaming and being awake but when you wake up you realize you were mostly asleep) and i was getting turned on by something normal and then my mind brought up a picture of a kid and made me feel like i was attracted to their face for a split second... wtf. this freaked me out and i woke up immediately really guilty and tried to find out what it could mean or if it meant my pocd was all real.
im 17, had pocd for couple years but recently its really started acting up. for the past month or so my brain was trying to convince me i liked the thoughts. i attempted to get over it by letting the doubt or feelings be there i guessm im pretty much over that now (i jinxed it didnt i) but now theres this weird thing where when i breathe in through my nose i get this feeling in the back of my head like theres air going through it. idk what actually happens but thats what it feels like. this happens a lot when i think of the obsession and i think my brain mistakes it for enjoyment?