So where to start. I'm going to try not to write a book because I have a habit of being so verbose. Long and short of it. I've dealt with anxiety and depression my whole life and in the past 4 years I've made very good progress against them. I see a therapist, I've done a lot of self work. I meditate daily. In some ways I'm the happiest and strongest I've ever been.
Blade. You come to an OCD forum seeking help people are going to tell you it's just OCD. If you went to a coming out forum people would give you advise on how to explore you sexuality as a gay or bisexual person. You are going to get the advise that most fits the community.