Was lying in bed this morning when suddenly I heard a someone say help. Problem is I don't know whether I did or whether it was just in my head. I felt like i was awake at the time but not sure if I was half asleep. I fear I will develop psychosis and now this has happened I am trying very hard not to panic. Does this ever happen to anyone else? Do you think I should be worried? I am thinking it over and over trying to work out what happened but I don't know.
I thought I was doing well until a couple of days ago, now my checking compulsions have got worse and I feel so depressed. I wasn't coping with the stress of completing my masters degree so have asked to defer. This has made me feel like a massive failure which is making me feel even worse. I start CBT on Tuesday and am clinging on to the hope that I will feel better after that although I know realistically it's going to take more than 1 session. I just feel like I can't cope and I can't stop checking and thinking over and over again.
I suffered with Ocd throughout my childhood. Although never diagnosed I am fairly sure this is what I had. I used to wash my hands a certain way until I did it 'right'. I also went through a stage of being scared of sleep walking and killing someone In my sleep and would have to check my clothes for blood (irrational, I know).
Hi, as you are testing the thoughts you are carrying out the compulsion and reinforcing the ocd thoughts. I'm having a day where I could just give up, but things will be better tomorrow. Today I have carried out compulsions and taken several steps back in my recovery.
I can relate to this. I get very stressed if my partner touches something I feel is contaminated. I do know it's my problem though and I am getting help. Tell your partner she doesn't have to suffer this illness and that getting help isn't as scary as it seems.
I imagine that none of your ocd thoughts have come true in the past, so just think why would they now? In the past I've had the worry that I would write something wrong, used to get worried sending out Christmas cards! However I never did write anything bad.