Hi everyone. I'll try and keep this as short as can be. A brief bit of history; I developed fear of being attracted to children and convinced I really was around 10 year ago, it wasn't anything I worried about in the early days as I was more easily able to dismiss them as stupid thoughts. I found comfort in discovering that a lot of people who suffered sexual abuse (I was groomed online at 14) often believed they would do it to others but never actually would. It's purely fear. However I also read online that those who are abused would likely to go onto abuse others..