Is it possible to have false attraction before having POCD? Like, experiencing false attraction before you have a history of ruminating? For example, experiencing "attraction" to kids at 13-14, before knowing what OCD is and that it can trick you into feeling attracted, but still thinking that it is weird, wrong, makes you feel uneasy and you want it to go away.
I am 18 and probably have POCD, trying to resist compulsions lately and losing anxiety so I am getting somewhere. But experiences before I had POCD make me question it all.
I agree with dazzling star and Matilda. OCD's main weapon is doubt, and groinal response is the reality component it tries to force upon you. Stay strong, just don't react to it and it gets better.