I was obsessing about groinal responses. One day when my main obsession was about having groial responses I had an intrusive thought about wishing bad to my loved one and I clearly remember I was thinking “oh, no I am going to worry about groinal responses while having these intrusive wishes” Guess what I was in full blown anxiety and checked groinal repsonses even if my new obsession was not sexual. I feel like a monster for checking groinal responses because this obsession is not even sexual.
I have had most of the OCD themes you can name. I’ve been in this OCD episode since April and it’s almost July. It started with magical thinking, had some rOCD thoughts, I had Harm OCD thoughts and now I had groinal responses.I have no idea what to do since I can not afford CBT right now.
I am reading a self-help book that says: “Intrusive thoughts. They are uninvited thoughts that jump into the mind and do not seem to be a part of the ongoing flow of intentional thinking.” And this triggered me so badly because most of the time my Intrusive Thoughts are in connections with my thoughts like i get triggered for some reason and I will be thinkig “i hope x will not happen” and then I get intrusive thoughts like “i hope x will happen” or that I want x to happen or that I wanted to have the bad thoughts on purpose.