I was extremely naive when I was younger and when I was 19 I had only just found out women can masturbate. Curious, I looked it up and tried it and I didn’t really get it as it didn’t work. I didn’t know that people tend to masturbate to images. I keep thinking, what was on my laptop at the time? I definitely wouldn’t have been masturbating to whatever was on there but it still bothers me that it could have been on in the background.
When I was 21 and at university I did a module on art and eroticism. I had a particular interest in how women represent their body for feminist purposes. In art, naked women are known as the female nude. I think I used this term a lot when searching. I researched a lot to get my answers for my essays and I keep thinking what if I came across girls instead of women? What if I used terms that may have produced results like that? I even bought a book on the body and photography once...what if there were people in there who weren’t adults?
Hi,After a pretty hellish month of an OCD flare, I’m slowly feeling a little better (albeit a little drained).I know nobody can tell me whether my memories are real or not, but I’ve had it proven to me twice that two of them aren’t real so I guess I know how impactful this disorder can be. I’ve probably gone through about 50 different obsessions over the past month. I know maybe about 10 of them are real but I’m over exaggerating them in some way.