I have a question I would like to ask. Can it still be OCD when things get very very real? For example, when you feel some sort of attraction for someone you shouldn't and don't want to, and it feels so natural and normal, is it still OCD, or is it all true?
I have been diagnosed with OCD but it's so hard to believe it's indeed OCD when everything feels so damn real. I'm so lost and don't know what to do anymore . And the worst thing is I am not even bothered by these feelings and thoughts. It almost feels like this is how it's supposed to be... what do I do now?!
Everything seems so real. It feels like I want to experience what my thoughts say. I don't know what to do or how to live anymore.
I'm lost and confused. I don't want to accept that I'm a paedophile. I don't want to accept it. But it feels like that's the only choice.
How do I keep pretending that everything is fine when everything is acutally terrible? How do I do it?
I'm really sorry for all this nonsense but I'm lost and I don't think there is any hope left for me...
I don't know what to do now because I've done, felt and thought too many disgusting things. I'm at a point where I'm completely sure that this (POCD) has developed into something much, much worse. I really don't know what to do. Firstly, I'm so guilty because I let myself actually think about the thoughts; and secondly, the (possible) attraction feels so real. How can this be (P)OCD if the symptoms are so similar to paedophilia?! I'm lost. And tired of pretending that everything is fine.
You sound like such a caring and nice person who loves her children and wants to protect them. I'm really not in the position to give you advice, but I really don't think you need to pay attention to your dreams.
I'm really sorry that you're struggling so much. I completely understand how hard it can be. I'm struggling myself and I'm in no position to give any advice, but I wanted to let you know that you're not alone.