Good evening!I developed my most recent bout of OCD after flirting online with another man while I was in a relationship. This event has left me deeply depressed, filled with shame and unable to function properly in my daily life. I am deeply remorseful for what I did and am trying as best I can to make it up to my partner.
I have been dating my partner for 5 years and we got engaged last week. What should be the happiest time in my life is slowly descending into a nightmare.In the past I have suffered from other 'pure O' types, such as severe harm OCD and an obsession with yelling obscenities at people. As a child I had rituals to control thoughts about people dying (I was also severely emotionally abused but that's a whole other story...)