Hey guys so... this last Sunday my wife and I were called to be in charge of some young kids for our church (we watch 18 month to 2 yr old kids while their parents go to classes. Anyways, it's been one of my irrational fears to be accused of doing something inappropriate with a young kid. Anyways I thought it would be a good exposure therapy for me and I am with my wife so I have support.
My recurrent thought is that I did something inappropriate with a young person in two specific cases and my mind thinks I deserve to suffer for like 20ish yrs until I can no longer be convicted of something even though I know 99.999% I did not do it, but my thoughts keep telling me I need to keep those Instances fresh in my mind in case I'm accused, I cant forget them in the least or my mind might try to distort them in the future when I try to recall the thoughts and then I went be able to defend myself. It's crazy I know :/ any tips ?
Hmm, so I dont know if this is ocd or just a morality perspective. If its morality, yes I'd confess, do you really want this on your conscious forever? I'm Christian however and those are my beliefs. If it's a false memory however then that's something else entirely, just my 2 cents.