I cut off orgasming when my OCD started getting worse, because whenever I did, an intrusive thought would pop in and I would immediately orgasm after and made me panic.I still masturbate, to girls, but never allowed myself to orgasm until my OCD was officially gone.So is cutting masturbation a good or bad thing when you are going through OCD (or POCD)?
So I won't waste anytime as I would like to get to the point.Is it considered normal to have your brain make you think you like the thoughts or does it make me an actual freak? Like I feel like I like them because the thoughts I get involve my two favorite sex positions: Oral and anal. But my brain keeps manipulating me into making me feel like I like it, and I feel like I believe it. All my life I've always been attracted to girls. But since I'm still going through puberty, I'm worried if this is my brain telling me I'm a P.
So my story is pretty long and started around January of this year and still is bugging me. I've learned to stop letting it get the best of me, but whenever I'm masturbating or have an erection and think of one of my intrusive thoughts, I get a tingle. These literally only happen when I get a thought and occasionally when I think of actually normal thoughts that I would always masturbate to. Right now I'm going to sum up my entire story.