Hello. I’ve written in here a couple of times with this issue, but it just seems to backfire on me with new questions every time I find a solution.So the story is (and I’m keeping it short), that I was deeply depressed when I was a young teenager. I’m not necessarily blaming my actions on my depression, but it could have had a big helping hand. To say it bluntly, I masturbated to fictional erotic stories featuring children having sex with adults from time to time.
So I’ve been hearing this “it’s normal to fantasize about it, but you don’t have to want it” thing, which just blows all my logic out of the window, because how can you fx fantasize about sexual things with kids, and not be called a pedophile? I know it’s a disorder and such so it’s not like you suddenly decide you are a pedophile. But I would never in a million years find kids attractive. I don’t get how you can jerk off to the thought of kids daily and not be called a pedophile because some people can fantasize about it without being pedophiles.(???)