I have recently been experiencing thoughts/images of myself doing things I would not do suddenly popping into my mind out of nowhere. I have no actual memory of doing these things but then I think what if they did happen and I just can't remember it. I think do these images pop up because they are true even though I know they are not. I then get into the whole needing certainty loop. How do i respond to this and does anyone else get anything similar?
So I'm having a bad spell atm. I have a long history of OCD which has taken many themes over the years. All of my obsessions involve harm of some sort, be it running someone over in the car, physically hurting someone and more recently harm of a sexual nature.
For the last 2-3 weeks I have had a feeling of intense anxiety constantly and the intrusive thought of 'what If I've harmed someone in the past but dont remember it's.
This then causes me to ruminate over the past checking my memory over and over which I know is the wrong thing to do.
I think it sounds very much like OCD. Are you aware of how irrational your thoughts are?
Most people with OCD realise their thoughts are irrational even though they feel so real and scary.
It's the anxiety that is the problem.
I am also trying really hard atm to stop the compulsions. The only thing is sometimes I start to feel better then my brain says but how do you know for sure you haven't done these things which starts the anxiety off again. Any advise for when this happens?