This might trigger other girls with HOCD and I'm so sorry if it does but I'm freaking out.
just heard about a thing called comphet and it has got me REALLY panicking. I definitely related to a lot of things with it but I feel like my case HAS to be circumstantial because of my social anxiety disorder. But I'm so paranoid now.
Anyone got advice on this please???
I know I'm probably getting annoying with all my questions but can hocd make you fixate (for lack of a better word) on a friend?? Because I have a good female friend who I adore and love like a sister. Shes a very pretty girl and our group of friends always joke about how we all would go gay for her. And like I've said before my group of friends are very platonically affectionate with each inner l other (hugging, cuddling when we watch movies, just typical friend stuff. Nothing romantic or sexual. ) I never gave it any thought and still really don't.
One of my compulsion has been to read up on a LOT of stories of LGBT folk and how they realized that they were gay and what the signs were and all that...and one thing that bothers me and triggers me is that a lot of the lesbians stories that I've read had talked about not understanding the difference between having an idol and having a celebrity crush. Or even crushes on their friends, they never realized the difference and it has me second guessing every time I hugged a friend as a kid or held hands with a friend. Or idols that I had growing up on the Disney Channel.